It was a tough day at work yesterday for me. Imagine from 7am to 7pm? Wow, I thought I was never going to leave that place alive! But I guess I was more looking forward to seeing him after work.
He took his last test and said to go home to shower and wait for me. I too, said that I needed to go home and shower.
Then I came! \"Hi handsome,\" I said! He hugged me and gave me a kiss by my neck while I kissed his cheek close to his ear. \"It seems like I haven't seen you in a long time,\" he whispered. Then, finally I had the guts to say. . .\"yeah! I MISS YOU!\" sHoOt, I was shaking after saying that! Then, he grabbed me by my waist and walked up to his place. Usually, he'll prepare me a drink that he likes so much... and that is - vanilla vodka with ginger ale! Now you know why my heart is always drenched with it! This time he fixed me up a glass of gin and juice. It was great and we had lots of conversation . . . until!
Well, I think you can say that we're getting buzzzzz! He held me like I wanted to be held. My heart was screaming his name, but my mouth was quiet the whole time, I think. I still wanted to say something just for the sake of letting my feelings go. Oh, my gosh! We . . . his lips came towards mine as he. . . and . . .we both let go! I was on fire!!! I closed my eyes and caressed his skin. The feeling was unbelievable! I knew he was there with me, but I couldn't believe I have the most beautiful creation right in front of me. It was pure happiness for me to get that close to something so beautiful. His scent, wow! I breathe him in so deep! I inhaled his essence and never wanted to let go! I ran my finger nails up his spine and his skin was so smooth. That's when I heard his voice, but his body was speaking louder than anything else. It was amazing!
After my body spoke to his, would he know now? Should I still tell him in words? It's been hours now since I left his pad. I took his scent home right here with me. Everytime I close my eyes. . . I can still feel him! I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU, COLLAN! Do you feel the same way about me?
I got to go now and hop in the shower. We're supposed to go to Ikea together after he gets off from work. I can't wait to see him again! Then, maybe hang out again back to his place after that. Should I stay over again and let our bodies do the talking? I'm not complaining! It's just that my heart is so drenched with love for him. I don't know when it will ever be sober from him . . . a very powerful spirit!
created: @1126 thursday, february 24, 2005
Tags: diary, love, lovers and friends, secret.
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